Thursday, April 27, 2006

Habit and Discipline

Well I'm going to try again. It is strange the cycles I try and bring myself into, but so rarely do I stop to think any more. I was reading a website ( which looks like it (at least started from) a uni group. It reads in the description about 286 generation as follows:

"... Each statement is built around the central value of living for the glory of God. Following each declaration statement is a prayer, emphasizing that the pursuit of these commitments is a process as well. Each prayer calls us to a greater dependence on the inside work of God to transform our desires into realities. This kind of thinking represents a significant shift away from that of promising God what we are going to do for him, as thought we could successfully accomplish such promises in our own strength, ..."

That last statement is so true. Some people have the self discipline, but not me, all I can hope for is the ability to take the small steps and get into the habit of something to keep me going in my own strength. Habits are useful, but the fear I always have is that it then becomes something done out of habit only, and it loses its meaning. The cry of my heart is to fill me with the desire to serve God faithfully, Lord give me the strength to carry on longer than the echos of the cry.

Monday, January 30, 2006

Fear of Robots

I was listening to Coldplay's latest album X & Y again (definitely my favourite album of 2005) and the words of Twisted Logic in particular (no I won't comment on the words to Square One which could possibly describe my blogging).

hundreds of years in the future
there could be computers
looking for life on earth
so don't fight for the wrong side

These words made me think about the way the future and robots are displayed - one reoccuring theme is that computers will rebel and try and take over the world (Terminator, The Matrix, Battlestar Galatica). Why do we come back to this common theme - is it because we don't believe that we can make something that isn't tainted - if we are capable of such abhorent acts as to try to decimate other races, what hope is there for any of our creations. Or is it a reflection on our own fallen status regarding God. He made us, yet look how we turned out - he is perfect, so if we are fallen will not our creation be an even worse abomination.

The idealist view of the future is that computers (aka robots) could eventually take over the jobs and people and we'd all be living a more comfortable lifestyle. Having a job that works with computers 8ish hours a day, I can say they generally produce more work, but on the other side I now work for an automation company - so that is our objective... its just a case of coercing the computers to do what we want. And that is always the trick - computers need to start actually learning, rather than just following the rules by which we define them. It'll be interesting to see what the future of computing holds - particularly non-binary computing, allowing computers to have that grey, than allows us to make decisions even when we don't have all the facts.

Starting anew

It is strange that for me New Year's resolutions have never been something I've held onto, and this year apart from being awake for the new year I didn't even really celebrate it. But what I have found recently is that there are more appropriate times for change - such as now - when my wife (who needs a good internet name!) is starting the new school year and we are having to wake up early again we are taking the opportunity to change our routine. For instance we are sacrificing half and hour in the morning (yes getting up earlier) so that we can both take Mr Flynn out for his daily walk.

I was also thinking today - perhaps associated with the subsequent lack of sleep - that I make a few changes in the way I do things - one is to try and spend less time in computer related activities and spend more time thinking and being creative. Hence this blog... it is a new start when the old one ( failed - I didn't quite have the creative output I thought I did, to turn my thoughts into a story... at least on a regular basis. So I'm trying this out, and we'll see where we go.

So I'm starting anew - and at the probably more appropriate time for us southern hemisphere people who have a break over Christmas, since there is normally no routine until about this time of year.

Last point - the title of this blog is a tribute to McG who once said that getting anything remotely personal out of me was 'like getting blood out of a stone'. Hopefully there'll be a little of me showing through.